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Sunday, April 4th, 2004
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1:56 am
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You are Spearmint.
You are quick-witted and sharp. You pay close
attention to details and you can tell what your
friends are feeling. You are always the first
to understand a joke and you are valued for
your insight and advice. However, you
sometimes isolate yourself from other people,
afraid to share your own feelings.
Most Compatible With: Cinnamon
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| Wednesday, June 13th, 2001
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11:56 pm - tonight and tomorrow
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i had a fantabalus time at homegroup tonight. mostly, i enjoyed the praise and worship through song.
tomorrow, i am going to be at the gcl preview table from 11 to 1. then, john h and i are going sharing on campus until 2. at 2, john t is meeting with matt g and wants me to come along. he wants to talk about some concerns i had expressed about authority in the church....
im not exactly sure what i believe in this area. i need to look at in the Bible tonight and see exactly what it says. pray for me that God gives me truth and helps me put it in words.
goodnight all!
current mood:  excited
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4:14 pm - this i know with all my heart:
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His wounds have paid my ransom.
wow. how amazing... those are skillet lyrics, by the way. from their worship cd.
i started memorizing Philippians today. i started at Philippians 3:7. that is the part God really threw in my face. but, eventually, ill get to all of it.
i aced my physics quiz today. praise God! i didn't do so well on the last one we got back. ah well.
and now, for the big news... my bike got stolen yesterday. yep, taken. gone. fini. it was locked up right by the front door to my dorm. and it was taken in broad daylight. maybe they needed it more than i did. so, anyway, im getting some more walking done.
tonight is homegroup. im excited about that :) that reminds me; i need to go see my ra and fill out some form or something they are doing at a "mandatory" meeting tonight during homegroup.
being off aim has given me extra time for stuff, which is REALLY great. i sent off several letters this morning, and hope to send some more tomorrow morning.
guess that's all from gville at the moment. signing off...
current mood: joyful (they didnt have that...)
current music: Skillet - How Deep The Father's Love For
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| Tuesday, June 12th, 2001
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4:21 pm - way too much to write...
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so much, this is seeming like a huge project and making me not want to do it...
its been over a week since i wrote in here, and so much has happened since then.
Wednesday night after homegroup and lifegroup, josh, john t, robert w, patrick, and i played, pool, ping pong, and foosball. it was tons of fun.
john h and i went sharing the gospel on campus Thursday right after lunch. it was really neat. we talked to three guys. one seemed to really love God. one was a church-goer/perhaps Christian. the last was a korean guy who didn't see how there could only be one God. john laid out the whole gospel to him. we left by asking him to seek the truth and read the Bible. john and i are going to try to make witnessing a weekly habit.
i had my calc test on Friday. yesterday, i found out i got a 19.4 out of 20. that was the highest grade in the class :) God, you continue to be so good to me. the class avg was a 15.6
i have a physics test on Monday and another calc test next Friday. the calc should be pretty easy, but i really need to learn some stuff in physics.
im going home this weekend for fathers' day. that reminds me...i need to call mr royston about a possible ride....
last weekend, i went to the oa fellowship at camp shands. it was tough being there and thinking about last summer. i got pretty frustrated with people there, too. in general, i was just kinda bored bc i didn't know anyone very well. sat, they had a little golf game thing. people there were so obnoxious. franklin and i left just because we couldn't stand to be around them anymore. then, after that, they played caddyshack.... well, if you know anything about that movie, you know it isnt fit for 12 and 13 year olds. it wasn't fit for me. i so wish i hadnt seen it. i figured a movie they were showing there would be at least relatively clean. well, i was very wrong. i was so angry. just as angry at myself as anyone else.
let me summarize by saying the highlight was about five hours of hard labor i performed Saturday morning and afternoon. we were moving some floating docks farther out into the water. we had to pull up the poles, move the dock, and put the poles back. it was so dirty! some of the junk still hasnt washed off. that was all kinda fun, though. i mean, i havent been that dirty in years. :)
yesterday, i spent the day off im. i need to spend more time off im....
i went to the orthodontist yesterday. he said i dont need to see him anymore. and that i need to keep wearing my retainers at least two nights a week if i want my teeth to stay straight.
last night, i ate dinner with john h at the gator corner dining. it just reopened after renovations. he was disappointed. he said, pretty much all they did was raise the price. there were tons of middle and high schoolers there for various camps and such. it was strange. at about 7.30, john and i met for our first accountability group. we wanted josh there, but that didn't really work out. it was good to talk to him about things. hes a great guy. at 9, we went to prayer at the ox. that was good, but difficult bc oleah was there.
all in all, i am still struggling, but God is ever faithful. He gives me more mercy. i think this will all be easier with john to talk to and be accountable to. God showed me Phillipians 3 and 4 again. wow. He blew me away with that. i decided im going to try to memorize Phillipians. that will be cool. something definitely worthwhile to do :)
um...as i have basically run out of things to say, im going to cut this off. if you have read all of this, i commend you.
God bless you all.
current mood: calm
current music: none...
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| Monday, June 4th, 2001
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11:50 pm - been a long long time since yesterday
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i havent written in a really long time. i have been kinda down lately. i cant bring myself to write when i am like that. i dont want to be down. i dont want to admit that i am down. journals i have kept before were so full of despair and depression. i dont want to look back on yet another of those.
i want to be strong in Christ. i want to glory in Him no matter how i feel. i want the joy of my salvation to fill me always.
all i can say is, GOD IS FAITHFUL.
i love you, Ancient of Days.
You are beautiful.
thank you for revealing part of Your infinite self to me.
my week...
not too shabby. im getting to hang out with people more. i really love homegroup and lifegroup. ive gone to hanna park in jax the past two weekends. its a beach+ i had lots and lots of fun. mike and i went witnessing on the beach. we only really talked to one guy. he was a lifetime churchgoer. hes going to promise keeper's this weekend. he may be saved, but he sure wasn't excited about it. :) :( anyway, he and his nephew were there fishing. he let us try it out. right before we left, i caught a small whiting. he kept if for bait for his wife for crabbing.
my physics test was Friday. i either got a 9 or 10 out of 10 (that's really good!!) praise God!
i went to gcl prayer tonight. it was so great to be with God with those people. i will have to make that a regular thing.
well, i guess ill stop there. hopefully, ill be making more frequent visits
current mood: content
current music: Switchfoot - Edge Of My Seat
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| Friday, May 25th, 2001
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1:36 am - today is gonna be the day that theyre gonna throw it back to you
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i have no idea what that has to do with anything, but hey. its a cool song.
today has consisted of me not doing much of anything (productive, that is). i got my hold on my record taken off temporarily...it didn't do me any good, though...the classes i want to take are currently full. ah well, if God wants me in one, He'll put me there. i want to take the intro to law class or a class about cults. if i can get into one of those this summer,....................it frees me to take Biblical Hebrew in the fall!!! :-D i would so love to take that. anywho, my whole fall schedule is kinda weird right now. i am trying to get a class signed off here that i already took. i have to get a professor's signature. im praying he will sign it just by me telling him what i have done in that class, bc all my coursework and everything is in texas :(. i can get it mailed here if i have to, but that would be a pain.
i actually skipped my one class today. it was calc and i am always bored in there anyway. i had intentions of going but i was at admissions longer than i thought. it doesn't matter, though. there is a quiz tomorrow, but not on that material. and, by looking at the assignment online, it looks like it is just review stuff from algebra II. something struck me funny, though.......he never takes up the homework. so far, i just go through the problems in my head to make sure i know how to do them. i dont actually write them out.......(no busy work)........anyway, the funny thing is, after today's homework assignment online, he put (OPTIONAL). im sure that's not as funny to anyone else as it is to me, but hey, your loss. :)
my parents wanted me to go home this weekend (memorial day and they miss me and all that). its kinda funny that I have been so far away, but, now that I am only an hour and a half away, they need to see me after one and a half weeks. I mean, I miss them, but I think they took it a little hard when I told them I am staying here so I can do some stuff with people in my homegroup. a group is going to jax beach Saturday during the day. im excited! :) john is going to come too, if he doesn't have a pile of architecture work, like he always does. I hope he comes. im praying God will use this group and ME to reach Him. im praying that GOD will use ME!! :) that is so great. God, youre awesome.
well, I have typed quite a lot now, so I will go to bed.
[inconsistencies in capitalization and apostrophe use come from typing some in lj and some in word. just in case youre crazy like me and you wonder about those things ;) .]
praise be to God for His indescribable gift!!
-- II Corinthians 9:15
current mood: chipper
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| Thursday, May 24th, 2001
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1:03 am - emotions
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well, i am a crazy emotional person. this morning, i wrote an entry. now, i am writing one that is practically opposite emotionally.
i had gcl homegroup tonight. it was so great. we had homegroup then lifegroup. i am so excited about where God is going to take us this summer. there are some amazing guys in there.
after all that, 7 guys went to steak and shake. we didn't get back here until 12. it was so great. it was so much fun.
before that, patrick said some things to me that were just so encouraging. he said i and another guy prayed right to his heart. and he also said he saw i was mature in Christ!! oh, wow!!! God, youre too good to me. i see patrick and i becoming really close. he is really funny and smart. and he just has a great personality. i hope we get really close.
but, my appetite to hang out with these guys cannot wait until next Wednesday. i am going to have to get with some of them at the very least this weekend.....
if im here, that is. my dad wants me to go home. at least, that is what he said at one time. he hasnt said anything about it lately, though. hmm....that's an interesting thought. anyway.....my homegroup is going to the beach or horseback riding or having a picnic weekend after memorial day. i cant wait. there are some amazing people.
God is so good to me. if i am just patient, but at the same time, active, God is going to blow me away this summer.
Praise Your Name!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
current mood: excited
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| Wednesday, May 23rd, 2001
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10:29 am - sad heart
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i miss all my friends. i miss everyone from letu. (obviously, bc i dont get to go to alabama, texas, washington, etc.) i miss all my friends from high school. the few that live down here seem always very busy. i need to try harder to do some things with them. sara is in clearwater. everyone else i know, are mere acquaintances, and i dont even see them hardly. i ate lunch by myself at the reitz yesterday :(. today is lunch with my life group, so that should be good. i just hope it isnt too rushed, bc it is at 11.30 and i have class at 12.30. tonight is homegroup. i am trying to be optimistic about it, but it is hard. my group seems very unorganized. i have spent so much time just sitting in my dorm room. john is NEVER here. always in the architecture lab until after i go to sleep. and he gets up and leaves before i wake.
i am trying so hard to look to God for my strength, but my heart is sad. the weeks seem to drag on with nothing accomplished. i have no motivation for school. i have done about a total of two hours studying in a week and a half of classes. i abhor what i am becoming. God, break me. God, change me. do whatever it takes. rip my life apart. that is so scary to pray, bc you will do it. but i need it.
i love you, Father. help my live in your joy.
current mood:  frustrated
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| Saturday, May 19th, 2001
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12:59 am - let me splain. no, it is too much... let me sum up.
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God is just so awesome. i am so full of His joy. yet i find already, i am starting to let some bad emotion have its way. God, dont let me do that. dont let me be ruled by emotion. let me be ruled by your wisdom and truth and grace.
last night, i watched teenage mutant ninja turtles just cause i felt like it :). i also started on my puzzle. today, finished my puzzle (that's 1000 pieces!). its this murder mystery thing where the puzzle gives you the final clue to solve it. i havent solved it yet. but i will. oh, i will! classes were pretty usual today. john was actually here some today which is more than he has been for the last week. he spends most of his time in the architecture lab. he has gotten less than 5 hours sleep in the last two days combined. i just dont think i could do that.
sara is coming tomorrow :) she is going to cut my hair and we are going to the gcl picnic. i hope john comes.
trying to not be in love with someone is hard. but God is helping me, PRAISE HIS NAME!!! wow, that talk with erika was amazing. God show me truth.
praise God, the credit card company isnt going to charge me for being late. thanks, dad, for insisting i call.
the picnic tomorrow will be really fun. i will get to hang out and do stuff for the first time with the people in my home group. i hope it is not hard for oleah. or me for that matter. God, thank you that you are going to help us. that you are already helping us. God, youre so amazing. i am so in awe of who you are. reading your word and really digging is so cool. youre the best author i have ever read.
goodnight, God. thank you for never telling me goodnight.
current mood: peaceful
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| Thursday, May 17th, 2001
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11:38 pm - ok, um, one of the best days of my life
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well, friends....if you have been waiting for me to FINALLY start writing in this thing, here you go. :)
i just couldn't pass it up to write in here today.
i am so full of God, so full of joy, so full of fire. i cant wipe this smile off my face.
i had lunch with dimple and her friend. that was fun. i hope we will be friends while i am here. i am really looking forward to being a Christian influence for her. she would be such an awesome Christian. i often think that of people. especially bryan. i wish i could do something more for him. wish i could make him see. ah well. God will do it, if He is willing.
i had my one class today, calc 3. it was kinda boring, but is getting better as it gets slightly more challenging. i did manage to do my physics homework in there, though. i came back and submitted my answers. i got 3 right the first time, and 2 right the second submission. the last one is over material he will cover tomorrow in class.
before dinner, i called erika and talked with her a bit. then, i went to her dorm and talked for a bit. i ate dinner with john (my roomie) and josh, a guy from gcl i happened to see there. there were also some other people from my home group there that i saw as they were leaving. after dinner, i played soccer for a long time with erika, a friend from high school. i hadnt seen her since.....summer, i think. wow, that's forever ago. we were pretty close at one time. anyway, we kicked the ball around, then sat down and talked more personally. we talked about me. we talked about me getting over Oleah and all that stuff. wow, if she didn't speak the truth of God into my soul. i wont elaborate more than that, but i am just so full of joy. i have more joy than i have probably all year.
i walked back to my dorm (about a 20 minute walk) just singing praises to the Most High God because He is good and worthy.
when i got back to my dorm.........my long lost best friend in 4th and 5th grades called. he is an army ranger medical officer. hopefully, he is coming to see me! and there is a possibility he can hook me up with a wrangler for cheap :)
then i talked to sara, and she is awesome. now, i am talking to eliot, and he is great. so.....................................GOD IS THE BEST!!!!!!!!!!
and i love Him with all my heart. i need nothing else.
thank you, Father
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